What’s It Like?

Hello All:

I have recently been wondering what it is like to have such a pathetically meaningless life that the only way you can entertain yourself, or even ‘realize’ you are alive, is by causing as much torment to others as possible.

To be so lonely and invalid that you glom onto anyone that will pay attention to you, and therefore, be willing to do anything for them.

To be so insignificant that you allow yourself to be used by men, i.e., they will let you live with them, do their laundry, and be ready to run and open the gate for them when they come home, but, they won’t marry you; won’t make a decent and respectable committment.

To be so weak-minded and have little to no character or backbone that you allow yourself to be controlled by evil-doers, naysayers, and the corrupt. Willing to do anything and everything just to be noticed, just to feel that flickering second of value. How sad that would be to look in the mirror one day and realize that you are that person!

Regards,
Looking4trth